Margaret

Yesterday, teacher asked me to distribute the circulars. Being my normal prying self, I looked at it. Yeah, it's about prom. I'm not too shocked, I heard they were distributing it this week. The circular just pressured me to ask someone to be my date already but the thing is, I don't know any guys. We've been having soirees and such but I'm not meeting anyone! It works for some people but not for me. People who does not seem like people that would have guy friends have already... Wow, am I that lame?

I need a guy friend.

I would laugh at him. I have this thing about people having things stuck on their teeth, I just laugh at them right in front of their face even though I like them or not. In this case, I get the best of both worlds. I make him feel bad then tell him.

Great thing about not updating for a long time is that I have lots of things to talk about now. I think this would be a mega blog entry to suffice for the drought. Moving on...

I just realized that I never went out with my friends in a long time. The only time this year was when we went out to celebrate my birthday and that's it. The other long weekends were spent just lounging around the house because of such tiring weekdays.

A month ago, I turned 17. Honestly, being old is kinda cool yet uncool. If you're old you get to play the I've been through that card and everyone else looks up to you. The feeling's nice but then on the downside, you see all these young blood doing their own things and you can't help but feel inferior to them, especially when they are REALLY gifted. That hurts. So, I celebrated my birthday karaoke-ing my heart out. I love karaoke, I get to let all those inferiority complex through a song with the people I love.

Two weeks ago, I got sick, real sick. It felt so bad, no one was home and I had to take care of myself. I had to wake myself up to drink my medicine and eat at the right time especially when you don't want to eat. Also, I had this killer headache, the type that won't even go away after you sleep for hours. I even prayed and asked for it not to be dengue, swine flu or UTI (UTI scares me). One great thing about getting sick is that you lose weight and that's it. The fever went away after a few days and then it's school again.

One day, I had a killer headache again, as it turns out I'm sick again. Great, it relapse. If only I could skip school and stay at home for the whole day, but nooo, I had to go to school to take four quizzes because if I don't, it would be cancelled and that's not good, especially in math. (My first quiz was a 5/10) Went to school, looking really messed up. The only thing I was thankful for was that it was club day that would mean shortened period and I could go home during lunch. After school, I went to the doctor's, she prescribed me antibiotics, got a blood test and I have to wait for the results the next day.

The next day, my mom called me and said that I had an infection in the blood. Sounds like some serious stuff, so I decided to check it out online since the doctor won't exactly elaborate and just told me to keep on taking the antibiotics. The infection is actually called "Sepsis" and 40% is the death rate, if I remember correctly. It's also hard to cure because the virus, bacteria, fungi become immune to it but my case isn't that serious so, I'm okay now. Unless, I get sick again.

I wanna go shopping today but there has been a change of plans because my mom is sick today. I'm really bored around the house. Sunday is the only day I get to eat expensive food and buy new things. I guess I just have to review for the tests tomorrow. Third year is so stressful.

Life's a game.

Short and sweet, forget my "Today's a dream", it was a failure. A mistake, that's what it is. I decided to move on from the "Nightmare Campaign" and make a new one. It currently still has no name. Light bulb moments don't come easy.

The strap of my bag broke today. I guess, my one and a half inch World History book along with my English literature book and Chinese notes was too heavy for it. I thought it would last forever. I love my knock off Le Sport Sac bag. First, it is really big, I can put anything in it and it will fit. Second, it's a backpack, my hands are free from holding anything. And finally, the print is really nice, it's paisley and hard to find. I will surely miss it.

RIP my paisley Le Sport Sac bag, unless... someone can fix it.

I totally take back what I said about this year being a dream. It is a complete NIGHTMARE. My grades are low, and all the things I wrote on my goals list never came true. This  year is FAIL. I can't believe I ever thought this year will be the year where everything just falls into place. Screw it, everything is messed up. I'm a failure.

The feeling of burning up in an air conditioned classroom made me get a headache. If I could, I would have breathed smoke. I was fuming with anger. Curse words just poured from my mouth nonstop. And damn, it felt good but not enough. I think this is the first time I was ever so annoyed with myself. I love myself, don't get me wrong, I'm one selfish person. But I feel so..BLAH.

I hate research. Who's with me?

On the first day of school, I started it with a "Today is a dream". I thought that it would be a great slogan for the whole school year. This year will be a dream, anything can happen. Sound good, yes?

I've made a lot of plans for this school year and I swore to myself I will not back down. I've already passed a write-up for Fair Committee. It was 100% me, no more going around the bush. If I don't pass the write-up then there really is something wrong with me, either that or it's rigged.

It's no joke when they said Third year is the most important year in your life. Chemistry, Geometry and Research all in one year. Research is actually a subject now, it's taken to a whole new level of research-ness. There are days where I get to meet my science teacher twice a day. It feels quite odd sometimes. I actually heard from the previous years, that they never slept a wink because of it. I hope that won't happen to my group. I need my sleep. Not only that, the research paper that we will be passing will be graded in English as well. One requirement for two subjects, it's a really heavy project too. Aside from those three subject, everything is pretty much the same.

Prom and Days with the Lord is happening in this year too. I will have a hard time finding a prom date, for sure. I will end up being set-up, but then that's okay because it's gonna be fun to have pre-prom with friends. Pre-prom is when two people get set-up for prom, they hang out first so that there are no awkward silences during the actual prom.

Days with the Lord, I have no idea what to expect. There are a lot of rumours going around that there will be initiations, sleeping in different parts of the school and such. I don't know whether I should be excited for it or be nervous about it. Sleeping in school can be fun, if you're with someone but alone, then that's a whole new story. One thing's for sure though, I won't pass that oppurtunity up.

Join the Dream Campaign! Today is a dream.(anything can happen)

Once you've started twittering, it's hard to stop. Have you ever experienced something mind boggling and told yourself, I've got to twitter about this tonight? Happens to me a lot. I just started around three weeks ago and I've finally reached my 100th update. That is not normal. Some people I follow started way earlier than me and just reached their hundred while I on the other hand, tweet like crazy.

Don't you ever feel like, "Wow, my life is so interesting when I try to document every minute of it."? Because I have. It just somehow feels great telling the world what you have been doing. I doubt that a lot of people look at my tweets but it doesn't matter. One day, I will look back at all my tweets just like I would look back on all my previous blogs and think what have I been doing my whole entire life. Haha!

I am so self absorbed.

P.S. I can twitter from my phone now so,  I don't have to wait until tonight.

Everything is messed up. The infamous swine flu has now taken over the country with a big cough. A day ago, I was all. I'll be fine, I don't think I'll get the flu. And now, I'm all, OMG, I might get the flu. My brother denies that he has it but I think otherwise. He's currently blowing his nose now and is shivering in the warmth of the room. I'm gonna be a victim soon. Pray for me! Just so you know, I've been popping vitamin C pills like crazy. I'm careful.

Almost all private schools have suspended their classes while we still have it. Honestly, I have no idea whether it's better to have school or have a ten day quarantine. This school year is one of the most important year of my life. This year will decide my future, what college I will go to. I can't exactly sacrifice this for no classes even though I want to.

I'm completely blah right now. Today feels like a dream. Everything seems like a dream. I've been saying that a lot today and I have no reason why I even claim it to be a dream. I just feel really really times to the tenth power feel weird today. Maybe this is a sign. A sign saying this school year will be a dream where anything can happen. Haha! How poetic of me.

It's time for my annual before school blog, also known as I don't want to school yet blog. I actually thought that I was over the thought of school nearing. Apparently, I've been mistaken. Just a few minutes before I decided to write this, I had butterflies from thinking about school. I will definitely miss not doing anything for a long time.

Third year is the hell year of all years. You have geometry, chemistry, research and prom all put together in one year. Everything requires attention and time. And you only have enough time in this world. I think this year will be the year where everything will happen. I'm excited yet I feel this fear. The fear of the unknown or something like that. That's it for now. It's really late. I've been savoring the summer while I still can.

We made a pact at the start of summer that we will lose weight this summer. If you've read my past blog, it's all there.
link here: popcorn-stalker.livejournal.com/27362.html .
Anyway, Criselda sent us a text message that she give up and she (I don't believe this) gained eight pounds over the summer. She gave in and she is treating us to the movies. Yehey!

We agreed to meet up 11am in Starbucks. It wasn't 11 yet but Criselda was really pushy. She called, texted and everything else telling us to hurry up because it's already 11:09 when it is actually just 10:50. She's so paranoid. We immediately went to buy tickets. Agnes and I were insisting the whole time to watch Drag Me to Hell. Criselda, Chelsea and Meryl who are all scary movie haters doesn't want to watch it. The problem, we are odd numbered. The scary movie haters are bound to win but magically things just went our way. Our incredible persuading powers made us get what we want. Who wouldn't want to give in to us? We were crazy annoying. Agnes and I were like children covincing our mom, Criselda to give us candies.

After a few or a lot of squealing, shrieks, whimpering and screams. The movie was over. We were like "...wow". We couldn't stop talking about, It lasted around 30 minutes. It was a good scary movie. It wasn't the type with an open ending and you don't even know if the ghost is still haunting people or not. It was the type of movie where the details from the start supported its ending.

Drag Me to Hell was about a young lady working in a bank as a loan something. She was given a curse by an old lady that she will be literally be dragged into hell. Christine, the young lady mentioned earlier tries her best to overcome it. Lots of crazy, odd things happen and yeah. I don't want to spoil such a good movie. Normally I would just say it and not care but this one, you should watch and see the ending. The ending was EPIC. Watch it if you enjoy scary movies. Watch it too even if you're not a scary movie lover.

         

This took us a lot of time to shoot. We just couldn't get it perfect but I'm very satisfied with the outcome. Is it better than the original?

Yes, I have decided to join the band wagon. Everyone is tweeting how many tweets a day, and I thought to myself, I want that too. So, ta-da! I have a twitter! I'm saying it again even though I've mentioned it for the second time.

When Criselda called I said to her "I have a Twitter!" and she responded in a blunt way "Not you too." She's not too fond of it. She says that it's a waste of time and it is useless. Me? I guess I just have too much time on my hands. Haha!

Anyway, I doubt people will follow me. My life is not that interesting. I'm just there to follow people who do have lives.

Follow me:twitter.com/margatweets

I just ate two slices of pizza a while ago. Finally! My craving is over. I've been having a pizza craving since... forever and in just five minutes it was over. Why didn't I just do that? I had to endured for the longest time of not eating pizza. It wasn't the best pizza but it will have to do since there's no other choice.

There's something about the look of pizza that just makes my mouth water. It's the way the cheese is slightly burnt at the top and how the cheese stretches when you pull it apart from each other. The oil makes it even worse, it makes it shine. Sigh. I gotta stop thinking about it.

Criselda and I talk on the phone most of the time and we talk about pizza cravings all the time. I think I have mentioned the same description to her 3-5 times already yet we never got sick of it.

I'm wondering, do you put a lot of hot sauce on your pizza? I make mine swim in hot sauce. Haha!

First, it was Friendster. I made an account when I was in Grade 5. I had to fake my age and everything. I deleted that account a long time ago but I was so shocked at how unlike me it was, how it seemed so immature. I was disgusted at myself. I'd hate me, but it's over now.

Then came Multiply. Multiply isn't big in other countries, but it is here. I like how I can steal pictures and post pictures as well. It is really convenient for everyone. Of course, I put the pictures for contacts only. It's nice how everything is in one site, your videos, pictures, blogs and many more. Even though it is not so new anymore, I still find use for it.

Now, it's Facebook's turn. When I made my Facebook account, I had no idea how it works. Questions just keeps popping after another. What's a wall? How do I write a note? There are applications, groups, pictures, notes and the problem of being tagged. People are poking/ superpoking me and I just chose ignore it because it will never end. I have around 200 requests to be denied or accepted. It was driving me nuts. Maybe I'm growing old and it really takes a while for me to get used to it.

Over time, I got used to Facebook. I just love how you can compete/beat your friends with their mini games and show what result you got on your quiz. You can like things and be a fan of things. It's a whole new world.

What do you think is next? I'm guessing Twitter but what do I know.

*I just wrote a blog a while ago. Two blogs in one night, I'm on a roll here!

I have this bad habit of opening a new carton of milk even though there is still one already opened in the refrigerator. I read somewhere that milk opened after three days is not really good for drinking, so I refrain from that. At least I'm not getting stomach aches, diarrhea and such.

I think I have developed a phobia of old milk. I remember around two years ago, we bought a whole box of whole milk, and it was near its expiration date so we had to drink it everyday. One day, while having breakfast, I was pouring myself a glass. The carton was almost empty, but towards the end, I started seeing lumps of somethings. After seeing those things, I just did not want to drink milk. I got over it, eventually. We buy the low fat milk now. It doesn't become as "lumpy" as whole milk.

It's funny how it works, I'm the "opener" while my brother is the one that finishes it. I guess, that's how we roll.

Did you know that milk can actually help in losing weight? I read it a lot. It's all over the place.

Over a month ago, the four of us decided to lose weight. We devised a plan that we would have weekly weigh-ins and exercise together. Since this year is gonna be our prom and a lot of other things, we want to look good in pictures at the same time feel good. All of us have our goal weight and we plan to eat healthy. We planned to have a Fruit Day where each of us have to bring a different kinds fruits then we'd make smoothies or just eat it plainly. We also have a Vegetable Day where we turn into vegetarians for a day. Criselda, won't have a problem with that since she is practically a herbivore. After the month of May is over, the person who has not lost or maintained her weight would treat us to the movies. No one wants to do that. It's really expensive. Lately, I just checked how much money I have and it isn't that much. It can't survive me for the whole year. So, I really really really don't want to treat.

At the start of April, my friends and I had so much things we wanted to do together for the summer. We have a whole list of it, but there's just these situations where it's really hard to find a day or even a time of the day to hang out together. Criselda has a killer schedule. She will never ever be free on weekdays. Her schedule could be considered as school or even worse. I quote from her "If I have a bad vacation then, school wouldn't seem too bad." The way her mind works is totally different from normal people. She makes things more complicated when really it is pretty simple. Meryl and Agnes will have summer job in school for like around ten days. The summer job I didn't get because apparently, I live too far from school. I'm still a bit pissed about that. For summer, I just have advance classes for Geometry and Chemistry. Third year is rumored to be the hellest year. It's not even rumored, it's true.

There are those days where my mom would just be in a really upset mood. She gets really obsessed about small things. She's the type that would find reasons to get mad at you. She will get annoyed by how irresponsible and messy you are.It's driving me crazy. The worst thing about it is that I can't even answer back or explain myself because you will always be wrong.

Sigh.

Sometimes, I just hate my life.

I don't know if I should start worrying about getting a summer job in school or not. Meryl was already informed that she got in. I don't know how she found out since she is in the States. And me? Well, I never even got a phone call. I'm becoming anxious, cranky and restless. I might not even be able to sleep at night! Okay, I was exaggerating, sleeping is no problem for me. I just fall on the bed and ping, I'm a dead person. I don't even know what to do if I don't get a summer job. I need a plan B.

Yesterday, I was on the internet as usual, chatting with people and just winding down after a long day. Then, I get a phone call. It was Agnes. She was back from the States! I couldn't believe it at all. I was jumping up and down and shrieking on the phone. I was soo happy that she's back. I missed her so much. It was like I suddenly had adrenaline rush and just can't stop talking. Haha, she was just gone for ten days and that's how we both reacted.

I went out with Cle and Criselda today, just to hang and bond. We watched Friday the 13th. Apparently, it was R-18, but we were still able to watch it. Criselda even claimed that she looked young. I beg to differ, we look pretty old. During the whole move, Criselda was covering her eyes and whimpering. Cle was covering her mouth and I was covering my ears. I bet if someone took a picture of us, we'd look like a bunch of gradeschool kids trying to be old. And for some reason, it as like only we were screaming. By the way, our poses were like the I see no evil, I hear no evil and I speak no evil.

It's getting hot in here. Usually, I take a bath and cool down so that I wouldn't have to turn on the air conditioner for too long. After my bath, I would feel cool and fresh for an hour then turn on my air conditioner. It all started yesterday when I was doing my routine, everything was going smoothly until I started to feel surges of heat pass through my veins after only a few minutes out of the shower. Yeah, that was one of my discoveries. If only there were a way to make the Philippines a bit cooler. The temperature of my room yesterday was 30 degrees celsius. That was pretty hot for an air conditioned room at night.

I started tutoring for advance geometry and chemistry last Monday. So far, everything is going smoothly, I get pretty much most of it or maybe it's because we're not at the hard part yet. Chemistry is kind of killing me. I hate conversions and density problems. It makes me want to study for geometry longer.

It's actually my first time to experience a tutoring scene. I imagined it would be like a classroom scene where the teacher explains everything first, hands out worksheets and checks them. Things weren't exactly like that in my tutor place and maybe in other places as well. Apparently my teacher has a number of students all with different subjects to be taught. So, he teaches one student then gives him a few numbers to practice then goes to another student. I guess you could say that I was sort of disappointed.